God i want a school cell. but so far i havent found anyone that went
OH YES YAY A SCHOOL CELL I WOULD LOVE A SCHOOL CELL AWESOMZXZXZ.
i don't know. i was wishing for response like that.
at least ok if there was a school cell i would be THIS excited. you know God.
ugh. im not ready to champion this myself. let alone prepared. suckszxz.
and everyone is high on homework and stuff. i thought about it. if there'll be a school cell, it won't be scheduled.
like yea we'll try to have it at least once a week. i really wanna work from rest this time round.
and i would love it if, like, different people get to lead it. and with people leading it, we HAVE TO work from rest.
or this will be just another, um i don't think this is God annointed
lets stop having cell lets change it into church kinda thing. omg the prayer group. we've stopped praying.
but i really see God moving. i mean really. like never in my school.
it is at least now a 'topic' to talk about and not feel awkward.
now God let it be a topic people will WANT TO talk about.
this is quite pointless. im blogging to sort out thoughts. about school cell.
okay don't ramble. hm. and then there's all the what ifs. like you know, what if there are really few people. what if.
what if we don't find a space in school to do cell. and if it gets boring. i don't knowwwww. im scared to think.
its something God put in my heart. not to weigh on my shouldes. no pressure, no pressure. work fom rest, and love.
once you feel the pressure, sit down, don't do anything.
ask for God. ask God. talk. do things you like.  
yes, got it. 

ugh.

i just had istant noodles. i wish they would cook faster. falling slowly is stuck in my head.
i reached school at round 2 today. for reasons(: and it is extremely hot. i mean.
i love the heat but please take away the humidity. i seem to practically live IN FRONT OF a fan. how awesome.
no. i cannot live without the fan now. omg. and it is only a tuesday): screw tuesdays forever.
sighhh, whenever it gets to monday, i seem to always stop doing devotionals, stop talking to God as much,
and i'll feel bad about it. yea sure i'll spend time with friends, feel happy go crazy and laugh alot. 
but inside i'll feel wrong. baaaddd this. i want to leave school. friends are th <3. 
but i wasn't born to go anywhere exams let alone exam results. anddd.
what do i do when it comes to friendship problems. such as these, i go blank. i really have no idea. 
i don't know what i did. and now i don't know what to do. i think we just didn't talk.
but, cold war? whaaat?  nowadays, i sleep alot. God, please answer THAT prayer. and that also. 
just those 2 for now(:

i have to study, but i want to blog. okay studying aside. yay blog.
this ought to be private but i shall stop privating all my posts lest this blog gets very boring. 
insights to some sermon dvd, thoughts rather. that i felt made lots of sense(:
i'll try keep this short, i still need to study omgosh ah.

the greatest commandment: to ♥ th Lord my God with everything that i am. God did not stop here.
the next greatest commandment: to ♥ everybody else. (this commandment completes the first)
the law and the prophets are summarised like that: love God, love everybody else.

Jesus broke social taboos when he asked the samaritan woman for a drink of water.
He affirmed her that she, though despised and scorned, could do something.
He treated her with dignity.
the conversation started with water (what she was interested in), and ended with worship.
i like how, when the disciples returned, he said he had had his food.
he gave, and was replenished! because he did the will of the father. 
noteworthy: Jesus was tired, but he gave what he had to the samaritan woman.
if i am drained, i wouldn't feel like interacting with people, let alone have a conversation. 
like, you know, don't come near me, or i'll bite. yea. this is baaaad.

another. the story of the shepherd. with a hundred sheep. 1 lost. 99 left.
He left the 99 on a hill, in search for the 1 lost sheep, and rejoiced in triumph when He found it.
Jesus said God is like the shepherd. hyperbole. His heart is for the lost.
and my heart should be after His.

okay now, i go pray ♥
and whaaaaat. i still have to study. i hate school. i want to quit school. i want to do something else.

i can play over the mountains and the seas, and the intro of lead me to the cross on the guitar.
how awesommme. im just pissed with how i cannot change my finger positions in time:/
guitar ftw. no, worshipping with guitar, ftw.
(:

okay i shall blog. since its quieti can think.
i like the peace at night. it seems so. nice. but i rather it pour now!
which reminds me, last night was all thunder and rain. it woke me up but i loved it.
the coolest part was. before i slept i was telling God i wished it would pour. 
and it did! 

today after church, i spent the entire day with mom(:
she bought me a top. and some shorts. and ice cream. and i got colourful headbands!
hahaha its not that i like shopping, i don't. 
but today was an exception cos i was out with mom
and i wasn't the one paying so why not:/ hahaha my mum is coolzxzxz. 
take away all the nagging and fussing and henpecking(haha). hah. 

okay now i want to try shower worship. cos i haven't showered. heh.  

tomorrow i'll just hang around the plans. i was thinking starbucks again. probably alone. cos
1. i get ultra distracted at home. in starbucks im only a teeny bit distracted(?)
2. the place is cooler than my house haha.
3. at night i can walk around the waters and sing to God<3

yayyyy.